To infinity and beyond ∞

Thank you 2012, welcome 2013!

2012 is almost over. This year has been a very good year for me despite the ups and downs. I've learn from my mistakes ad gained much experiences.

Happy end of the year, people! Feel so blessed to be alive!

Welcome 2013 :)
2012, you've served me well ;)

Happy new year everybody!
New year, new start. Work hard ad you'll succeed!

CHEERS 😄

elleslig,

26th dec 2012

First day of work in a new environment.

I hope I get to meet nice people and hopefully boss's nice to me.

Gonna pack up and clear the desk for a clean and neat desk ;)

Way to go!

elleslig,

For I know, this time, it'll be the last.

12.12.12 ❤

elleslig,

Home?

Home haven't been the "HOME" for the past 2 months.
It doesn't have the warmth and happiness anymore.
What has it become?
Lonely, dark and emptiness are filled.

It doesn't have the feeling of a "HOME" anymore, sad to say.
Why must an outsider affect relationship between the entire family and I?

It's sad. It really is.

Christmas house party was cancelled. I think this was the entire reason why.
You didn't dare to answer when I asked why. Instead, a straight "No" you answered...

How things can change drastically since then.

How distant they've became towards me.

How much tolerance I have towards the way and tone of their speeches,

How much changes in these months?

Just because a relationship failed. That doesn't mean I wouldn't be able to find my own happiness. I am 23. I am old enough to know what I am doing. What's right from wrong. I'm old enough to tell myself if its love or not.. I am definitely old enough to get married at this age.

Okay, I'm just ranting away.
Lying in bed now still..
Hate waking up early and sleeping late at home, cause all ill be is just in my room.

What's new?

I don't know who to blame, partly or entirely for this to happen.

I just find it really ridiculous and unreasonable for her acting this way.
I am your daughter, why let an outside affect this whole picture?

If ever ill find out 2 people who aren't suppose to be in contact, are still in contact. You'd watch out.

She said to me yesterday," you don't have the rights to talk about him."
So, let me ask..
Do you have the rights to then?

Who the FUCK are you create such impact. No one!

Seriously. Fuck this shit.
I had enough.
I can jolly well stay out for all I want..
At least, ah ma and the people there treated me like like a family.

I told myself to work hard once the 26th is here. For me, for you and for us.

I'm no longer younger anymore, in the 18/19s'
I'm looking far, for my future.

No matter what, I still love you, Mummy, Daddy and Kor kor.
It takes time, it's alright.

Xoxo'
gil

elleslig,

I LOVE DECEMBER!

Zoukout.
Clubs.
Parties.
Celebrations.
Holidays.
Christmas.
Presents.
Santa Claus.
Me and myself.

❤❤❤

elleslig,

She and her dog.

Her holiday period, brought her out for some fun.

elleslig,

Mid December.

It's the 15th and we managed to catch the sun. Wavehouse, here we go!
It shined then rained.
We tanned, we swam, we ate, we had fun.

elleslig,

6 days to Christmas!

Six days to christmas, seven days to the start of work.

DIY-ed a miniature X'mas tree yesterday for a upcoming surprise. Stay tune...

Ho ho ho!
Pack week ahead ;D

elleslig,

Sigh.

How fucking unreasonable!

You have a bad day at work and come home venting your fucking temper?
So who's giving in to me if I have a fucking bad day at home?
This isn't fair.

I don't think what I've done was wrong, seriously.
I was kind enough to help.
If it wasn't intentional, I wouldn't have liaise here and there, day and night just to get a confirmed answer, just for you.
Instead of appreciating it or a thank you, what did I received at the end of the day?

Bullshit.

It never pays to be kind.
Even your own flesh and blood might turn their back on you.
I'll never be kind anymore. I should be safe myself and take precaution from any shit that will happen.

I believe and I did treat you as a kin.
Even thou the efforts were small.
It's not always the favors that counts, but the efforts.
However, it was taken for granted time and time again.

Now I would be on safe guard, for myself. I've seen the true colors.
I've come to realize not everyone will appreciate your kindness towards them.

I might be harsh at times thou, but I did air my stand. All I gotten was hurtful remarks and thinking what I did was all in vain.

It's not the anger within me now, but, it's how much disappointment I have towards you.

I haven't been working proper since 2011, except for freelance jobs that I've taken up. That doesn't mean I rely on my previous boyfriends to "support" me.
I believe there are people who think that way. So, please so not judge nor assume.

I, Gilselle Wong, has never taken a cent from any of my boyfriend nor have they supported me.
Yes, they do buy me gifts on occasions. However, that is on their free will. I had never and will never ask for something I want.

So, get this fucking point straight all you idiots!

I work for the things I want.

Unless, coincidentally, someone bought a gift I've wanted. Already say it's a gift I didn't ASKED for.

I may seem like materialistic person. But no, and I don't believe in one. I never did.

Firstly, money won't buy you happiness. It will never.
Happiness is found and will be found in your own in life, in relationship, in friendships and kinship.

So here I am...
Today the 6th of December.

I promise myself to work hard when the new job commence. I will strive higher then before, for myself to lead a better future. For my partner and myself to lead a better life, and for our children in the years to come.

It's the needs VS wants
Be realistic, not materialistic ;D

Good night,
And tomorrow shall be a better and brighter day

I always believe in,
Sunshine after rain!

Xoxo'

elleslig,

December'2012

Do what you love. Love what you do.

elleslig,